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[Verse 1]
It was a carbon copy of every mistake I made when I was nine
I'm always too loud but always too nice
To speak my mind the way I mean to the first time
Sold you out for a mouthful of missed rhymes
It's not important
Wish I could ignore it
Waking up every morning
Feeling outplayed and boring
Like I'm never gonna live up to the people who I idolized
Chasing the limelight
Contributing wholly to the very thing that I despise
So what's the point of trying

[Verse 2: Kaj Strife]
Showing fewer signs of living like every single day
But I wouldn't have it any other way
Guess I don't know what I don't know
Paper cutting myself with old photos
Self conscious but not self aware
Got new clothes that I'm never gonna wear
Made new shit that I'm never gonna share
But screw it, bitch, I don't even fucking care
Some days I got a god complex
And other days I'm lying
In a catatonic compress
I try make it rhyme with dying
For the sake of reputation
I try to be the bigger person
Either way they'll all be waiting
For me to join the 40 percent