Double Life (wish I didn’t have to live)

[Chorus]
(And still I’ll always feel that-)
Maybe if I was more confident
I’d never have to rely on others to show it
People would make fun, and think you’re already beaten
But the happiest are the ones who’re always mistreated
Though I’ll never be the same
It’s better to know that I’m the one who’ll always stay great
It’s gonna be fine, maybe things will change in another life

[Verse 1]
At times, I know things will never stay the same
To change, I know I have to leave things behind
But fuck this, I’ll say it, I can’t wait until I die!
Knowing that I don’t have to hide all the time
And yes I can cry, because I know the cost
But that doesn’t mean my right to feel is lost
When I reflect at the end of the day
Manifesting for the day I’ll stay sane
Even though I know I’ll never go back
Wishing that my fear didn’t play so big in this act

[Chorus]
Maybe if I was more confident
I’d never have to rely on others to show it
People would make fun, and think you’re already beaten
But the happiest are the ones who’re always mistreated
Though I’ll never be the same
It’s better to know that I’m the one who’ll always stay great
It’s gonna be fine, maybe things will change in another life

[Verse 2]
Know that people will stay and some will go and leave
In the end, God will know what's best for me
Who cares what they say? At the end of the day
I will always stay bright, my aura shines a rainbow light
I'll look to myself, think of all that you've done
And don't ever let no one say you'll never be number one

[Outro]
A lot of us wish to do things better
But in reality
Are we all supposed to be here?
I know it’s scary but.. do we even deserve this?
Did I deserve this?
I guess we’ll never know
But growth begins
When we begin to accept our own weaknesses