I wrote this after a pretty nasty breakdown. I hit burnout after 2 years of working every day and constantly tearing myself apart, and I really started wondering why — where that habit came from, whether it was a defense mechanism or just built into my DNA. “DOIDOIT” was written in about 5 minutes...
[Chorus]
Do I do it 'cause my dad did it?
Is it something in my blood?
Did I see it in a movie?
Do I do it just because?
[Verse 1]
Got a bad, bad habit of living on manic
And trying to stay busy for the gram
I can't sleep if I don't work, sorta go bezerk
Shut my friends out and never make amends
Run my business like a savage and never look back
Probably burned a few bridges on the path
I didn't hang in my grade, had to make the paper
Never learned to cut myself any slack
[Pre-Chorus]
I don't know if I'm right
Don't know
[Chorus]
Do I do it 'cause my dad did it?
Is it something in my blood?
Did I see it in a movie?
Do I do it just because?
Do I do it 'cause my mom does it?
Is it something I can crush?
Is it really who I am? Is it in the program?
Does it even matter?
[Post-Chorus]
I just wanna be enough
Do I?
[Verse 2]
I spent five years stoned
Trying to zero in the zone
Guess it's easier to fake it when I'm numb
I go ghost with no control but you wouldn't know
'Cause I never say a thing to anyone
[Pre-Chorus]
I don't know if I'm right
Don't know
[Chorus]
Do I do it 'cause my dad did it?
Is it something in my blood?
Did I see it in a movie?
Do I do it just because?
Do I do it 'cause my mom does it?
Is it something I can crush?
Is it really who I am? Is it in the program?
Does it even matter?
I just wanna be enough
[Post-Chorus]
Do I?
[Bridge]
Been at war with the future
Fighting what I can't change
Try to cover it with humour
'Cause I can't relate
Get me out of my body
Something's wrong with my skin
I know I haven't been talking
I don't know where I've been
[Chorus]
Do I do it 'cause my dad did it?
Is it something in my blood?
Did I see it in a movie?
Do I do it just because?
Do I do it 'cause my mom does it?
Is it something I can crush?
Is it really who I am? Is it in the program?
Does it even matter?
Oh, I just wanna be enough
[Outro]
I just wanna be enough
DOIDOIT was written by Chaz Cardigan.
DOIDOIT was produced by Jeff Sojka & Aaron Chafin.
Chaz Cardigan released DOIDOIT on Fri Nov 16 2018.