Does It Ever Make Sense?

[Chorus]
Does it ever make sense?
It doesn't ever make sense
Overwhelming stressing got me testing all my patience
Questioning my lessons, tensing up my brain waves
Pretending everything is peachy and it's all okay then
Nothing is okay, nothing feels the same
I open up my mouth and eat the dirt of my own grave

[Verse 1]
Been digging all my life, tryna do what's right
And I still mess up all the time no matter how hard I try
Believе me that I'm trying, I still look like I'm lying
No one dеserves to feel like they should be crying
No one deserves to see me at my worst timing
No one deserves to feel uncomfortable in their own skin
No one deserves less than the world when they deserve everything
I said deserve everything
I don't deserve anything
Nothing is real like a finger for a ring
Ring and it rang, I climbed the ladder's rung
Then I went and ran and it all became undone
I don't want to be done, but I think that I deserve that
The words "I'm sorry" has anyone ever heard that?

[Chorus]
Does it ever make sense?
It doesn't ever make sense
Overwhelming stressing got me testing all my patience
Questioning my lessons, tensing up my brain waves
Pretending everything is peachy and it's all okay then
Nothing is okay, nothing feels the same
I open up my mouth and eat the dirt of my own grave

[Verse 2]
I dig my own grave, and I try to explain
I will never understand other people's brains
I can understand the fact that I've brought them pain
I can understand that they'll never love me the same
I can understand that my brain's wired differently
I can understand it's not an excuse, so I live misery
It's just the bare minimum to take responsibility
Mistaken communication and taking things literally
It's just the bare minimum to handle this with maturity
Leave my life 'cause no one's deserving me
I wanna disappear after a long walk on a short pier
I wanna disappear because I know I will always mess up while I'm here