Do You Mind

I waste my time on my whole life
Hold my thoughts cause I've been sleep deprived
I waste my life in broke mind
Hold my words cause they never come out right

I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find my reflection
In life and all that unkind

Can't I be a little self sure
Self secure
On that I'm not all that I think I am
Can't I get a little control
Open my doors
On that I'm not all that bad as I think I am

I don't really care for what I have left because I've fucked myself up so much I might deserve this mess and
Fuck all this love, I hate to admit
I'm really like this
Scum piece of shit
And I know I could be brighter
Yeah, I know I could aim higher
And I know I should think lighter
I know I would be fine if I was a trier

Yeah, I hate how I can't let myself hang low and if I didn't speak at all I think that I would let it go
But if I knew how I hurt
Well, I would promise to let you know
I've been feeling Goddamn low and I just can't let it go

Do you remember 2013
From then on I wished my life was unseen
Cause I hate who I could have been
Let myself slit up my skin
And drown all my dreams
In the sink

I'm sorry maybe I should have tried harder
Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
I'm sorry my words can't be any sharper
I'd cut up my mind and set the remains on fire

At least you could have said I'm gone on the drugs
But I am sober now and I still seem to fuck up
And I'm sorry I can't accept all your love
It wears me off
Leave me in my head because that's already tiring enough

I waste my time on my whole life
Hold my thoughts cause I've been sleep deprived
I waste my life in broke mind
Hold my words cause they never come out right

I'm trying really hard to be someone you'd like
I'm trying really hard to feel like I'll be fine
I'm trying really hard and maybe I'll find my reflection
In life and all that unkind