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[Intro]
“Good morning”
“We interrupt our program to bring you this important message-”
“It's just shapes..."
"But what a strange choice to have to make at the end of the day, between all the information in the history of the world or the back of your eyelids, y'know? Infinity or oblivion?"

[Verse 1]
My intentions have always been golden
But my emotions left me to rot
Heart on my sleeve, so I'm told, I don't know
I still get all those intrusive thoughts

And I can't stop from hating myself
When it's a gamble just to get out of bed
I wanna prove that I can handle this
But I can't when I'm still locked in the shed

You said it's all in my head

[Chorus]
I just wantеd some peace
It nеver really mattered which
I'm starting to think I'd rather just
Lay down and be dead in a ditch
You can't save me now
I'm already too far gone
Please just don't get too attached
'Cause i won't be staying long

[Verse 2]
Head like a wildfire burning in the parking lot
I barely work and I feel worse ‘cause i cry a lot
I ditch myself and wonder why I'm feeling so damn lost
I guess I'll hide away and stare at all the things I'm not

And you can rub it in my face that I'm a broken mess
It's not my fault that I can't ever seem to pass my tests
I leave my friends on read, I never fucking check my texts
But rest assured I'll pay it back with all of this duress

You said it's all in my head

[Refrain]
I just wanted some peace
It never really mattered which
I'm starting to think id rather just-

[Verse 3]
Head like a wildfire burning in the parking lot
Fuck my assumptions I guess I don’t really know what I’ve got
I ditch myself and wonder why i'm feeling so damn lost
All i do is hide away and stare at things I'm not

And you can rub it in my face that I'm a broken mess
It's not my fault that I can't ever seem to pass my tests
I leave my friends on read, I never fucking check my texts
But rest assured I'll pay it back with all of this duress

[Chorus]
I just wanted some peace
It never really mattered which
I'm starting to think id rather just
Lay down and be dead in a ditch
You can't save me now
I'm already too far gone
Please just don't get too attached
'Cause i won't be staying long
You said it's all in my head