Distant (Rubicon II)

The paths that I once tread
Have all but gone
Only embers now smoulder
Where bridges once burned
I feel alive and yet I fear
What may happen now
I know I can't return

And I hear me say again
"Oh, let me not return"
Damn the illusions of redemption
And the hopes that held me here
I will oppose all that would befall me
With this rage inside of me
I will defy what I would become

The solitude and anger
That do battle inside me
Will always guide me to the answers
That I know I may not see
They are the bonds that hold me tighter
They are the chains that weigh on me
One day, I know they will be gone

Can I start again and erase this pain?
By casting doubts into the waters
Asking judgement of the sea?
Though fortune may guide the fools
I have no wish to be free
Until I am gone