Dissonance

Hook: {Sagashi Shitsuyō}
I’m just tryna stop the pain but I can’t
Pouring down sweat, aching in my hands
Blood torn fate and a hint of regret
Bloodlust state with the demons I’ve met
So many people doubting me
Close friends want my defeat
I will not concede
Let them shoot down shots at me

Verse 1: {Jvst Rebel}
Lately I've been thinking really hard
Found out, I got a lotta stuff that's on my heart
And honestly, don't even know where I should start
Strayed from where I began just to re-find my spark
Resign and embark on a whole new journey
Deny the remarks, forgiving all who have hurt me
Decline on an arc tryna show how I'm worthy
Refining my art without a means of asserting
Myself with any certainty
Barely anybody seen how hard that I been working B
Tryna act fine but shit is irkin me
Part of me knows the opportunities been lurking me
And insecurity on the low, been truly shirking me
I might call the curtains
See I posed myself a question
Post it to my closest
See if they can piece the essence
What if I acknowledge it?
Could it still remain a presence?
Or will I see the end
And have to throw away the lessons?

Hook: {Sagashi Shitsuyō}
I’m just tryna stop the pain but I can’t
Pouring down sweat, aching in my hands
Blood torn fate and a hint of regret
Bloodlust state with the demons I’ve met
So many people doubting me
Close friends want my defeat
I will not concede
Let them shoot down shots at me

Verse 1: {Jvst Rebel}
Feel like I showed the least potential
Out of all my peers
I had the passion
And I honed the knack and skill for years
Said, "fuck my talent
It's about grind and what it shows"
Year 6
Still tryna show em what the kid beholds
Had to feel the lows
Before I even found a high
I hear the truth in people's praises
But they sound a lie
The dissonance has been a struggle
Wanna start anew
I lose a battle with the skill I know
And self review
I find myself thinking back
To every chance I blew
So short sighted
Didn't know of all I had to lose
Can't even drop my pride
Or ignore what I feel inside
Real eyes realize real lies
And it's the bottom where the fakest hide
And that's where I reside
And have been for the past 2 years
The dust has settled
Now I'm waiting for a path to clear
If I try to pave it
All that I will find is darkness
Tried to evolve
But All the methods try to turn me heartless

Hook: {Sagashi Shitsuyō}
I’m just tryna stop the pain but I can’t
Pouring down sweat, aching in my hands
Blood torn fate and a hint of regret
Bloodlust state with the demons I’ve met
So many people doubting me
Close friends want my defeat
I will not concede
Let them shoot down shots at me
(2x)