Disparage (Hysteria)

[Intro]
Breakdowns
With all these voices in my mental, imma let down
All this anxiety lurking, I'm hearing lead sounds
Know that let down, all of the people around me
That lay to rest now

[Verse 1]
I miss all my friends
I miss all my brothers
I'm sorry that I lied to you
I love you like no other
And i wanna make amends
Make amends
But it just turns into a mess
Into a mess

[Verse 2]
I wish that maybe i could, see her again
Blue I apologize
I wasn't man enough for you
You're one I idolized
I'm still so narcissistic
In this state I'm paralyzed
I hope that one day i could change and find a better light

[Verse 3]
And I'm so worthlеss
Can you tell me why
Tell mе why this shit never workin'
It feels impossible maybe with you I had a purpose
Just to make it out of this hell
I feel like everyone around me is waiting on me to fail

[Verse 4]
What the fuck
I promised you i would never give up
I'm in quicksand, i feel like I'm drowning in the mud
Inside of your hand, maybe i could go and swim above
And if you're done here, maybe I'll lay turnin' into dust

[Verse 5]
(breakdowns)
I know that it's terrible
Its bad, feeling that i had
Pain is so unbearable
It's messing with my psyche
And my mentals in the gutter

[Verse 6]
Maybe in the end it'll be worth it
I know i suffer, i just let the problems get to me
I'm feeling like no other
It gets colder in the summer
All i wanna do is perish
When I'm 6 feet deep i hope you know our memories i cherish
Wit that pistol grip, i let it rip
I hope i just disparage

[Outro]
Don't know why
I don't know why
Don't know why