Dismal Ballet

My life is a wreck, got nothing but hate
I lost all my hope and I lost all my fate
Everything’s gone, I have nothing to lose
Sometimes I wish I could go back
But now it’s too late, all I feel is a lack
A lack of a ruth

I disobeyed, it’s time to pay
Thought I was brave, but not all the way
Acting like stray, I’m going insane
I know I betrayed and I am to blame
But I feel no shame

Should I let it go?
Should I take it slow?
Should I stick to you?
Should I be alone?

Please, go away, I’m feeling okay
I’m walking straight, struggle and fray
I imitate, I think it’s a way
But starting today, I’m tearing away

Please set me free, there’s nowhere to hide
I’m ready to kill and I’m ready to die
One thing is certain - the ending is near
Which way I go? What do I do?
I’ll jump of a bridge to get new point of view
Then I’ll fell no fear

Dismal ballet, breaking away
Fading to grey, I’m my own slave
I doubt in today, I feel the decay
Whatever you say, it’s always the same