Disingenuous

Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
I've been disingenuous
Self detriment it is
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Yeah I've gotta hide my problems
I push them down yeah I beat them to the bottom
'Cause apparently my pain is breaking others
But I could never live with that because it bothers me
Yeah I know its unfair but I'm feeling really scarеd
They are not evеn aware
I know that some of them care but I still don't wanna share
I hide most of my thoughts and they cry
They fear my touch and I try to be enough
I just wanna be enough
Discovered I'll never be numb
I just feel too much
Hypersensitive I can feel your thoughts
Tried to give comfort
But you flinched away
That left me in shock
Was a lethal shot to my brain
In my head I'm lost
I don't know where is home
Alone always alone
There must be some place on this globe
To escape to let me go
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel
I've been disingenuous
Self detriment it is
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I feel
I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
I've been disingenuous
Self detriment it is
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel
I've been disingenuous
Self detriment it is
Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel