A song where shinigami explores his self-deprecating thoughts and general discomfort with his appearance / past. By reflecting on the past and how he got to where he is now, he appears to not be happy with most of his decisions. And while his life is objectively better now, he still longs for a time...
[Chorus]
I can't look myself in the mirror
I'm disgusted with myself
I can't believe that this is what I have become, oh-oh
Maybe it's not worth it
I know I can't be perfect
And maybe one day I'll forget you
I don't want to, but I need to
[Verse 1]
Remember singing lullabies
I knew it wouldn't last forever
I just can't look at the bright side
Ignore all the feelings that I fight
[Refrain]
The first time, I knew you would come running back
This time, I know that you don't love me back
Love it when you tease me, hate it when you leave me
I know that you'll DM me when you see me on the TV
[Chorus]
I can't look myself in the mirror
I'm disgusted with myself
I can't believe that this is what I have become, oh-oh
Maybe it's not worth it
I know I can't be perfect
And maybe one day I'll forget you
I don't want to, but I need to
[Verse 2]
While you try to fuck with my mind
I'm 'bouta fuck up a check
I just took a flight to Japan
While you were asleep in your bed
Foreign denim and the kicks are Dior
Paranoia when I walk out the door
I don't think that I can take any more
Face down, bleeding out on the floor
Maybe I just need to sleep in for another day
I think she love me
'Cause she sees that I got diamonds on my wrist now
2K for the fit now
You know I'll be right here no matter what happens
[Chorus]
I can't look myself in the mirror
I'm disgusted with myself
I can't believe that this is what I have become, oh-oh
Maybe it's not worth it
I know I can't be perfect
And maybe one day I'll forget you
I don't want to, but I need to
[Refrain]
The first time, I knew you would come running back
This time, I know that you don't love me back
Love it when you tease me, hate it when you leave me
I know that you'll DM me when you see me on the TV
disgusted was written by shinigami.
disgusted was produced by shinigami.
shinigami released disgusted on Fri Nov 06 2020.