​disguised

[Verse 1]
I take my pain and I rack it out in a line
I take my brain and I trade it in for a dime
I take my problems and I put them on a pedastal
And if you wanna fuck with me first give me chemicals
But lately i'm better it's been incredible
I'm faded but now I'm just on that medical
And maybe my choices aren't that regrettable
Maybe someday depression will be forgettable

[Chorus]
Every time I close my eyes I see a world where I don't gotta lie
Trapped in my body, I slowly die
I'm in the lobby of the afterlife
I don't even sleep at night
I lie awake and I fantasize about a life where I'm not disguised
I'm paralyzed by paradise

[Verse 2]
My life could be hell
My life could be heaven
I just can't tell which way I've been steppin
And I'm betting by twenty-seven
I'll either be living my dream or I'll be checkin out
I got all this doubt
Fear in my brain so I'm smokin' up a cloud
Music so loud while I speed through town, like
Am I about to come up or go down?
I take my identity and make an enemy
I take my greatest mistakes and call them destiny
I take my jealousy and call it empathy
I take fake love and call it chemistry
But lately I've been coming to my senses
I'm tired of living my life pretending
That I'm satisfied jumping over these fences
And climbing this mountain that's never ending

[Chorus]
Every time I close my eyes I see a world where I don't gotta lie
Trapped in my body, I slowly die
I'm in the lobby of the afterlife
I don't even sleep at night
I lie awake and I fantasize about a life where I'm not disguised
I'm paralyzed by paradise
By paradise, by paradise