Discomfort Revisited

[Verse 1]
You carry an illness
Practically know it by name
It seldom speaks for you
You learned to tune it away
But it wasn’t easy

[Verse 2]
Was fond of your writing
It allowed me to see into you
You hid behind the similes
Like fractal light in all shades of blue

[Pre-Chorus]
Pebbles and mirrors

[Chorus 1]
I’m just
Jealous because I tried mapping out your mind’s
Inconsistent ways, tangled and untied
I watched your ends start to fray, you felt
Buried from the start, tearing you apart
Constricting the free beating of your heart
I knew your postcard would say
“Wish you could stay, wish you felt the same way”

[Verse 3]
Asked to be admitted
And they put a lock on your door
Subdued, medicated
Face to linoleum floor

[Chorus 2]
And you
Tried to break away, painted window panes
Bars behind the glass molded to the frame
You saw yourself in those days, you felt
Buried from the start, tearing you apart
Constricting the free beating of your heart
I knew your postcard would say
“Wish you could stay, wish you felt the same way”

[Bridge]
I am
Tearing up pieces of old news
To mend the leaks in my open wounds
Protect your pressure points I refuse
To press against, let yourself renew
Project the voice that I found for you
Pull up the weeds from the ground you grew
Feel soil under your toes, it’s you
You have forever

[Chorus 3]
I felt
Weaker when I bent, beaten to the end
Folding on myself, too damaged to mend
I couldn’t hold all the weight, you felt
Buried from the start, tearing you apart
Injuring yourself dragging from my arm
I knew your postcard would say
“I know your new heart still desires to play
And who would I be to keep it all for me?
Wish I could stay, wish I felt the same way"