Disappearing

I sit in silence with my head buried in my hands
Thinking that I'm my own biggest letdown

I can't stand a word of your support
Just stop pretending and face the ugly truth
I'm right where I belong
And I don't know what to do

I'm disappearing
The smoke clears and the embers die
I hope you can forgive me
But I don't wanna be your guiding light
I'm damaged, you can't fix me
Erase me from your memory
A lost cause and a never-was
I'd prefer you to forget my name

I don't want to talk it out
And I don't need your poor advice
People always told me it's my fault
Seems they all wеre fucking right
You can call me names
But you won't hurt mе more than I used to hurt myself
I admit I'm fucked and out of touch
Please let me disappear

I just wanted to write my songs
And share my thoughts and feelings with the world
But it's not enough, that's not how it works
It's money and it's how you look and who you know
This industry is a giant fucking scam
You're all disposable to them
Stay away from this circus if you're decent and broke
They can take everything they want from you
Like your life is a joke