Disappear

[Verse 1: Monoxide]
Please don't let me go outside of my bedroom
Or I won’t live another day, I promise I'll be dead soon
You cannot understand the kind of life that I've gone through
Is what I tell myself to feel better, but it don’t really help, rather
Place blame, live in shame, it's so inane, it's my fault
And you all you have to say is look at everything it cost (True)
I'm a soul so lost (True), addiction knows no cross
I just want to close my eyes and try my best to sleep it off
When I'm high, I'm so high that the lows don't exist
And when I float by, the whole time I ain't move an inch
I lost control of my left eye, now I’m stuck with this twitch
And all the sores over my body are contagious as shit
I need you here ’cause if this don't work and my body’s too weak
For me to fight through the withdrawals, hold on, let me speak
I don't want to be another junkie on a leash
Just blowin' through my life like garbage in the streets
So I take my last chance and hope I get to see the sun
But if this don't work out, I need you to let everybody come
And maybe they won’t make the same kind of mistakes as I have done
But if they do, at least they get a chance to see the only outcome

[Chorus: Jamie Madrox]
All my problems go (Disappear, disappear)
Close my eyes and then (Disappear, disappear)
Holdin' my head, I can't (Disappear, disappear)
Open my eyes, I hope (Disappear, disappear)
All my problems go (I can make it disappear)
Close my eyes and then (Watch it all disappear)
Holdin' my head, I can't (I hope that it disappear)
Open my eyes, I hope (That it all disappear)

[Verse 2]
Inkblots like a Rorschach Test
Tell me what you see when my thoughts manifest
Like a noose on my neck and the bricks on my feet
And a demon on my chest and it listens when I sleep
Complicated, life changes once
Either mutate with it or you live in disgust
Overcome by the pressure like a fish belly-up
Obstacles in life can be different, various
To the ones that break the bread and eat the crust
Some throw you in the wheel wells under the bus
Try to be different, try to love and trust
But the bad taste lingers like a memory of us
I can't change it back but I can back it up
Now and forth this life as a guideline
With the grains of sand, I'm not a pillar of salt
Who's fault and why we argue all the time
Disappear into thin air
Shell of a man, never felt here in the first
Tense, still I feel a purpose
To change the world 'fore I purge the soul of serpents
I can make anything happen
You ain't seen nothing but fractions
Feelings and overreactions, hate and attraction
Givin' my sentiments traction, verbally all-terrain
Right off the rails like a runaway train
Sayin' that we are the same is insane
And all of this happens inside of my brain
And everything therein contained
Today and every day I push it away and make it disappear
Your life's a mess, I'll make it crystal clear
Take a listen here, you can change gears, fuck fear

[Chorus: Jamie Madrox]
All my problems go (Disappear, disappear)
Close my eyes and then (Disappear, disappear)
Holdin' my head, I can't (Disappear, disappear)
Open my eyes, I hope (Disappear, disappear)
All my problems go (I can make it disappear)
Close my eyes and then (Watch it all disappear)
Holdin' my head, I can't (I hope that it disappear)
Open my eyes, I hope (That it all disappear)