­difficult (acoustic)

[Verse 1]
I put the effort in relationships that never last
I'm always too hard on myself, it makes me fucking sad
Praise the wrong ones for no reason
Hate to think I just can't keep 'em
And God, I wish I was somewhere in the back of your mind
I wouldn't feel so bad thinking about you all the time
Every night I see you leaving
Guess sthat's why I gave up sleeping

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm doubting everything that I'm feeling
I guess I'm just a story repeating

[Chorus]
I feel like a lot, I don't know how to be less
I know what I want, it's always what I can't have
Is it possible I'm too comfortable in chaos?
I'm praying to God that if I slip you won't see
I'm asking for love but I don't think I believe
Always blame myself, then I cry for help, it's so typical
I guess I'm just difficult

[Verse 2]
I'm always spiraling, I'm way too good at breaking down
I tend to trick myself, thinking you'll always be around
'Cause the truth is way too heavy
Hate myself when I'm unsteady

[Pre-Chorus]
I wish that I could run from my feelings, mm
But I'll always be a story repeating

[Chorus]
I feel like a lot, I don't know how to be less
I know what I want, it's always what I can't have
Is it possible I'm too comfortable in chaos?
I'm praying to God that if I slip you won't see
I'm asking for love but I don't think I believe
Always blame myself, then I cry for help, it's so typical
I guess I'm just difficult

[Bridge]
To love and to want when I'm being
A little bit difficult
To hold and to trust when I say that

[Chorus]
I feel like a lot, I don't know how to be less
I know what I want, it's always what I can't have
Is it possible I'm too comfortable in chaos?
I'm praying to God that if I slip you won't see
I'm asking for love but I don't think I believe
Always blame myself, then I cry for help, it's so typical
I guess I'm just difficult