Different route

(often)
Wanna disappear more often than not
Glimmer of that hope lost in all them thoughts
Shimmer of that hoe lost in all them thots
Would say i care about myself but i forgot
And i'm not doing fine hard to get up out that cot
All this rain on my mind i'm just wishing for the drought
All this pain i'm in chains shell of what i was about
All the same nothing change think i need a different route

Rapping only time you hear those words come out my mouth
Sing a couple bars, closest thing that i'mma get to shouts
Bringing every single thing i got and still got hella doubts
Don't you see this hell around me nigga kinda burning out
Burn another ounce so i can see what's up in the clouds
Swarm of all these demons tryna catch me when i'm really down
There's a frown on my face all the time feeling souless
Solus by my dolo also got me feeling hopeless
Polo on my body and the shotty in the focus
I could be down bad you won't even notice
Wishing i was blooming in this hoe like i'm a lotus
Rope is looking better every time i'm in the cold shit
Dope is looking better when the evil is approaching
Drowning in the deep i thought that i would take a soak
Now i'm shattered like i'm glass but i'm never looking broke
And i'm thinking bout the past it look better when it's gone

(jerry)

Sip this wock I'm going out in just a few
What are you even trying for if you're afraid to lose
And if you wanna disappear its kinda hard to change
Ill be damned if you make it even again
I think i see the light I'm not even in pain
You're the one who caused this you should go and catch a train
Its not over yet i think that you're the one to blame
I often feel forgotten and I'm running all the time
I'm working on myself while you're just snorting all those lines
I think you're ignorant you're not seeing the signs
Don't even think i want it anymore
Don't wanna think i wanna