Did I Really Move On?

[Verse 1]
I got this weight on my shoulders, can't wait til' it's over
Cause I don't have much time til' I lose my composure
I'm a mess, with regrets, thinkin' bout the words you said
There's no way we can go back, and that should put me to rest, but
Losing you got me pushing girls away, and
Coming through, but I know you'll never stay, and
I could pray, think that maybe this will change
Then I go another day, after day, all the same shit
I wrote a letter but I couldn't ever send it, no
Thought I was better, now I see we had to let it go
I lost myself, either way I wish you well
Maybe I could be better, I guess that only time will tell

[Verse 2]
Seems like I've been changing, don't know how to take it
Lately I've been pacing, maybe could've saved it
Maybe if I get my shit together I could know
Who I am, who I'm not, instead I don't know where to go
Lost, looking for my way
Looking for somebody who will give me time of day
Used to be the one, now I'm standin' in my grave
Did this to myself, losin' passion for the pain
You told me that I can't forget who I am, so
If I told you where I was, would you go? No
I'm not the one who remembers where I'm from
Wouldn't recognize me anymore, I'm always on the run
Every day I wake up I'm ashamed of what's inside
Let myself become someone who fell in face of pride
Underneath the surface, holding onto burdens
My soul is under strain, won't be dancing when I die