Deteriorating

[Verse 1: Gizmo]
Shit, I still miss my fam and my friends
But, I swear that most of all I miss my bro Lil Spence
Whip the Acura out the pad smoking Newport cigarettes
I still think about those times
Little stress it was the best
But, now I gotta grow up
But, I'm still wasting my money on green stuff to roll up
You can eat my dick if ya don't know us
And I still ain't shit, but I ain't gonna slow up now
Codeine, high - c, backwoods full of terps
I'm without a place to be (place to be)
Feels like I'm living in a dream
But I'm missing the feeling of when I had you next to me, girl (next to me)
Nah wait, fuck every stupid bitch that twisted, ripped my life to shits
That's a pain that I’ll never forget (never)
I'm great, I could lie until I'm rich
If you granted me wish I wouldn't take that shit cause (no)

[Hook: Gizmo]
I never fucked with my life, and there ain't a single thing
That could make it all right
Every day I'm up all night, with the music in my head
It's the only thing I like
It's so hard to love me, you don't wanna look at me I'm fuckin ugly
Fuck me, let me disintegrate
Deep into the soil and deteriorate

[Interlude]
"Progress when that old drill goes in
I'd almost rather go to the dentists than anywhere wouldn't you? Yeah
Now, no novocaine. It dulls the senses."

[Verse 2: Barren]
Before I say a word
Please listen close this time
I said this all before
But I've really lost my mind
I know you're always worried
My fingers look so blurry
Crossing over to a new world
I love the way you look so lovely
My self-worth is so ugly
I am absolutely nothing
Contradicting thoughts read back on the screen
Makes no sense to me
It’s all a dream
Can’t be thinking all these dreadful thoughts about you and me
I’m living in a void now
Just testing all my patience with no one to try and say shit
It’s just a statement
That I’m making
Please no mistaking