DESPITE MY DEMISE

[Verse 1: T.R.I.P.]
Yuh
Don’t wanna sound like a bitch, but fuck it, man
I gotta lot of fuckin' problems, y’all won’t understand
And lately, my mental state been driving me fuckin' crazy
If I'm being honest most of the time I'm fuckin' lazy
Mostly everybody always told me that I’m selfish
But honestly I can’t help the fact I feel helpless
If I tell the truth, I'ma piece of shit
My heart is in a hundred pieces, it’s been broken since a kid
Teary eyes writing this letter for these days to get better
Every night I’m sweating, crying feeling under the weather
Deep emotions demonic thoughts think I’m losing conscious
The devil telling me I’m almost out of fuckin options
Only thing that keeps me going is my girlfriends face
Without her, I would’ve killed my myself and left this place
Yea
I would’ve left this place
But I’m saved for the moment, Thanks

[Hook: SCHIZO]
I’m dying inside
From the poison in my life
Am I wasting my time
From these tears that I cry
I’m dying inside
From the poison in my life
Am I wasting my time
From these tears that I cry

[Verse 2: VAGUE]
Yeah
Even when I was kid, was never ready to get that call
“Did everything we could, sorry that you lost your pa”
Couldn’t you call me a day before I received that news?
Now I can’t accept that statement until I see the proof
No goodbyes, no final moments to witness life
A fuck up like that cannot be made up with any price
Alone and surrounded by voices he ain’t recognize
I wasn’t the only one that day that didn’t say goodbye
But it’s now it’s all over, the nights are gettin' colder
It fucken never lasted, I was stripped away from closure
Look into my eyes and tell me to try to keep composure
But I’m always losin' sight, no tellin' when my life is fuckin' over
The hope, it fades, the emptiness it eats away
What’s left in my brain, it can’t heal my pain
Now that I’m always talkin to the fuckin' dead
I hope it be my father that follows me 'til the end