DESOLATE

[Verse]
I'm not okay, it's not just a day
Every day I wake up I don't have shit to say
I just feel fucking numb
Like my life had begun
I've been trying for years ever since I was done
Now I feel like shit
Is it gonna be like this for the rest of my life?
I wanna end this shit
It's not fun, uh
I just wanna get out
I cannot escape, it's in my head
I cannot let out
All these fucking feelings that been trapped inside my mental
Never gentle with the way that they just fall at me
I'm feeling sentimental
With my old self
And the things I used to do
I never had a thing to prove
And if I did, it wasn't true
But now I'm here
And my ego gets a hold of me
I don't wanna work, I wanna live but I've been hopeless, see
Everything you're thinking is achievable
Even though the sun is down, my goals are never seasonal
I work hard, play hard, and never flexing any money
You look stupid and deluded, even if you think you're funny
What a shame
What a shame you had to waste the happiness you gained
Just to put yourself in pain
Fucking sickening
And I see it all the time
But I've been [?] blocking out
So I can make myself a plan
You fucking fools
You thought you had me for a second
Even though it's fucked up, I see my mental as a blessing