Deranged by Grief

I just want to smile through the blood and bile
Crosses and frowns flipped upside down
I was alone until I was not
This forest floor reeks of dilettantes
Had thoughts of joy, health and happiness
If you tell a soul, I’ll eat your friends
Left me in the fog of Bleecker St
You have the gift of song but they chose me
Long road to Canaan for a crashing bore
I’m the only livid man in New York
I look pensive because I’m pissed
You glittered horribly and you won’t be missed
Without you, I’ll be deranged by grief
The throne will smoke from lightning on your shoulder
You got precious as I got older
Without you, I’ll be deranged by grief
All for you, it was all for pleasure
Now I’m sitting in high feather with you
Deranged by grief
Your approval means everything
Deranged by grief