“depression isnt real lol”

I don't know i got this far
How the fuck did i get this crazy
You take like thirty minutes just to reply
Cut my eyes out my sockets so i don't cry
Throwing up and laying on the ground i think i died
I'm feeling like a zombie baby i don't feel alive
Looking at the tree i'm so eager to die
Another death in my way yelling out why
Feel so many knifes they're falling on my back
Build up so much courage and it gets taken back
Your love confuses me and i know it's something bad
Do you need me or need me to leave
So many feelings that are too hard to read
Giving me so much pain on top of everything
I don't know how much more i can take
I know how i want to die but don't know which lake
Cut my eyes out then i'll give it to you
No other girl will touch them no way to prove it to you
Put my hands in the pot they start to melt
Cause myself physical pain don't feel nothing else
My dad thinks i'm overreacting, doesn't know how it feels
I fucking hate people who say depression isn't real
I wish i can blow my brains out in front of them
My parents hate me because i'm not one of them