Demons

[Verse 1: Rowlan]
I said
Sometimes I spill my mental out on a beat
I send my thoughts up to the sky
They take me off of my feet
I paint this image for you
A replica of my pain
I let you hear out my problems
But hope you don’t feel the same
My emotions been a wreck
My head been on phsyco
I can never win this war
But I still try to fight though
Beauty in the struggle
The struggles a friendship
I been talking to my demons
Back and forth on some friend shit
Asking how, seeing who
Wonder when it’ll stop
Question why they build you up
Knowing damn well you drop
Always asking for some sun, but it don’t leave when it rain
I wanna love all of my scars, but they remind me of pain

[Chorus: Rowlan]
See I don’t love you
I don’t hate you
Woah woah woah
8x

[Verse 2: Rowlan]
See I don’t love you I don’t hate you
I don’t see no other option
Lately I just been observing
Lately I been on my watching
I’m just acting like it matters
I’m just speaking like you hurt me
I don’t love you I don't hate you
But I feel you dont deserve me
I been right here steady trying
I been out here slowly dying
I stay low key with my crying
Demons never leave my side
I just feel like it don't matter
I just feel like it’s depression
Say its only in my head so
You can really get to stepping
I don’t need the energy
Lately you been seeming toxic
Everytime I mention problems
You just go and change the topic
We should really start to face them
Facing everything is key
You may be out run all these demons
But my demons catching me

[Chorus: Rowlan]
See I don’t love you
I don’t hate you
Woah woah woah
8x

[Verse 3: Rowlan]
Wish I could give you all my visions for a day
Just, to let you sit with it, and hear the shit you say
You always call me crazy, you been right and I’m apologetic
But I’m human too, and often times it seems you do forget it
My mind run, my heart follows, and I can’t stop it
I feel my mental lift the world, so I just can’t drop it
I guess I need to say I’m sorry once again for stressing
But often times I feel you busy and I need attention
I want the doctor just to tell me that I’m fine and good
But even when they do, I feel like I'm misunderstood
The things I feel never add up when it's even
I’m sick of fighting love and hate I feel like leaving

[Chorus: Rowlan]
See I don’t love you
I don’t hate you
Woah woah woah
8x