Colleen Green on the intensely personal nature of “Deeper than Love”, via StereoGum.
I spent a long time writing that song; I knew that I had to get the lyrics just right for it to be effective, for it to work. I was really scared of putting that out there, but I thought that it was some of the mos...
[Verse 1]
Someday, I hope for a lover to kill me
It's the closest I can hope to get to anybody
It's the closest I can come to being really free
And there's a ring of questions on my mind lately
Like will I find a love that lasts as long as my life?
Or will I die before ever becoming a wife?
And I'm wondering if I'm even the marrying kind
How can I give you my life when I know you're just gonna die?
Is there anything stronger than biology?
Is love being ruined by technology?
Nowadays, commitment seems like a burden to carry
I don't wanna think about it
[Bridge]
I don't wanna (I don't wanna)
Think about it (think about it)
I don't wanna (I don't wanna)
Think about it (think about it)
I don't wanna (I don't wanna)
Think about it (think about it)
I don't wanna think about it
It's too scary
[Verse 2]
And the closest I can come to being really free
Is letting my lover perform experiments on me
Observe and analyze
And empirically hypothesize
'Cause I wanna know real love so desperately
But I think it's gotta happen scientifically
'Cause I'm scared, afraid of real intimacy
You know, the kind they say happens psychologically
Dressed up like a surgeon, you cut open my heart
Remove the brain and leave the body in charge
No more emotions taking control
We'll pick a part and play out our roles
[Chorus]
Further than fantasy
Deeper than love could ever be
Further than fantasy
Deeper than love could ever be
[Verse 3]
And the only best friends I ever made
Were people I knew I didn't have to see every day
The closest to true love I ever came
Was with someone I kept many miles away
'Cause I'm wary of eliminating distance
This could surely be the death of any romance
'Cause I'm shitty and I'm lame and I'm dumb and I'm a bore
And once you get to know me, you won't love me anymore
And that possibility worries me the most
Not harm or abuse or becoming a ghost
It's the closeness, the intimacy
I'm afraid it might kill me
[Chorus]
Further than fantasy
Deeper than love could ever be
Further than fantasy
Deeper than love could ever be
Deeper Than Love was written by Colleen Green.
Deeper Than Love was produced by Colleen Green.
Colleen Green released Deeper Than Love on Tue Feb 17 2015.