Dedicated (feat. Diverse)

For you
Dedicated
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Couldn't imagine it would hurt like this
The first to admit that it overwhelmed me
My shades drawn, closed off
Hardly spoke to family or otherwise
Butterfly nerves in my stomach
So hard to summarise

Emotion a page
And going through phases
Mostly a maze that ends abruptly
Knowing that change is
The only thing immanent
Slowly configured it
Pieced it back together
Seeing that life plans a tin of this

You were scheduled to relocate west
Would have been fresh, on tour stopping through
To get caught caught up with you
But all that's left is a shoe box and pictures
Just like 2Pac and Biggie
Wonderin' who shot ya figure

With shorties around the way
Forty dollars in change
Put you under
Got your mums reeling from solemn pain
I felt her heart break
But what was I to tell her?
No shelter from the rain
But I offered her my umbrella

(sampled)
You hopin' that the fact this shit was real
Like this
Said you know how it go
It's only a matter of time in life, planets collide
A star appears
That's the street speaking, nothin's shaking
Every day of the week you act different
A star appears

Yo — knew I was supposed to get back at you
But after you was different
Second look, it had me mad again
I had a friend when I was younger
Used to ask me when we spent time
Lyin', I told him: every other holiday

Hard to contemplate the pain at age ten
Knowin' I couldn't depend on you for a damn thing
Advancin' from a boy in the ring
What life knocked down
You not around to see me develop
Into a grown man

No consolin' my moments of crisis
Knowing the price is paid by both
Who s'posed to be thicker than water
Thinkin': why bother
You that father playing deadbeat
Bein' the bigger man
Left me to return the phone call

You told me you saw
My face in the papers
Hope it's not a case of the vapours
You askin' for favours and shit
Could be legit
I don't know how to trust you
I'd love to, but it's been a while since you come through

(sampled)
You hopin' that the fact this shit was real
Like this
Said you know how it go
It's only a matter of time in life, planets collide
A star appears
That's the street speaking, nothin's shaking
Every day of the week you act different
A star appears

(sampled)
I survive on intimacy and tomorrow — that's all I've got goin' and the music was like smack and you knew about that and still refused my dance was not enough
Well look, junkies layin' on the floor and dyin'
That's some man coppin' some kicks to the dead
And the music was like smack…
Now suffer's old sign
To feel him up for anything else that's been left
And the music…
And the music…

(sampled)
This is, uh, kind of a special piece of music
It's autobiographical in nature
There are not too many secrets there