​december.

[Intro]
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Valentine in December
You say you love me but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end

[Verse 1]
Am I real? Am I fake?
Every path that I take always sends me
Right back to the start of the maze
Lost in a haze of the shit that was broken
I can't really say if I'm happy or hopeless
Fuck it, you think it matters it doesn't? It doesn't, what does?
I can say for sure that not love
Every connection I had, it was all lust
Look at 'em now, they're so beautiful, all dust
Ashes of passion, could never imagine
That what really has would have ever have happened
From crying to laughing, from peace to me spazzin'
I used to have drive but I fucked up and crashed it
I'm still alive but I wish I could die
Told me the truth when I wish you would lie
'Cause sometimes the fantasy's all that I need
Real isn't something I'm ready to be

[Chorus]
Valentine in December
You say you love me but you don't remember
My name, you cause me pain
All girls are the same in the end

[Verse 2]
This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something
Nicotine in me suppress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time at least
'Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line 'bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like, bitch, why you still here?
I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that