Dec. 30, 1334

By the time you hear this message, I'll be gone
Forced to this conclusion by the hands of time and a voice that whispers, "No other choice" (No other choice)
Sound of distant gunfire in the blue horizon
Rising slow drip sex drive pulsing chaos through discordant veins
Yes, I have passed away, passed on, passed falsely through those pearly gates
I was somehow taken by hand, unaware, and led to this fork in the road
Now I have arrived at a conjuncture of parallel madness, a narrow pathway divided by millions of fragmented lives
Lived as one. So you do not believe in love, yet it is love that has destroyed me
I lay my body down, spent shell, as proof
Place my coffin next to yours as if to say "This is what I’ve always longed for" (Always longed for)
It's been many years in calling, and by calling out the names, who did I wish to hear from?
Those who have stroked me? Fucked me? Disregarded me-John or is it Judas?
Stuck like a knife in flesh resilient and now they do not detract me
And one more thing before I go - I go without regret
Forget tomorrow's awakening, today has found its end

A moment of silence please, for those dead or dying
The world around us stands still, briefly, then BANG! BANG!
Shattered and back to the next routine
Up ahead, on that hot, dusty road, take a look around you
Have you walked this road before? Buried loved ones here? (All are loved ones here)
Well, of all places, I was the last I had expected to find you crawling on
I held out my hand and it was not taken by the other’s, but instead, kissed wetly
Left behind dripping venom and blue lust all mixed with blood
I've been told you make an incision then suck the poison out
Some of us, as you well know, dear brother, long for such childish pleasures
Driven by some wild, inner beast, I mount my childhood steed
I race off, crazy, towards the pale horizon
A firey haven that makes my body quake
In my doing so, I leave behind another wounded soldier in the dust, another mangled junk heap just like me
And pushing onwards, pressing forwad- suspicion rears its ugly head
I suspect, in every manner, that we have met somewhere before
That in our various travels, we have passed each other several times
That you have, in many an instance, haunted me
Strode with me to the landscape of multiple shadows which marks our place amongst the dead
Yes there is a blinding image of you, doubled over, placed before me
In your eyes I detect the same savage fears that I have battled all my life, that I still struggle fiercely to escape
Yet escape I fail to do. And picking myself up off the floor, I admonish you never again to fall
Follow the leader to new terrains, terminate eternal backlash of the
Grown up world, a world that neither you nor I belong to
I notice a small boy, shyly smiling next to me - they spat and laughed and fucked each other several times
I hold this vision in memoriam, my sweet shattered youth
I erect a temple in my blazing heart to house the treasures such as these
An abundance of star lit memories prove to be of comfort in my hours of need
Now I see that I have reached that pale horizon
You are beside me, all around me, but how I wish you were here
I miss you more than you may know
I love you like no other
In fond remembrance and deepest longing-
Your brother...