Dear Ryan

[Verse 1]
Dear Ryan, I know this song is overdue
I would try to write it, I would just cry at pics of you
And things are changin', but so am I
Remember findin' out the news my Dad told me my only brother died
You were my rock and I look up to you forever
You left me all alone and I just hope you're livin' better
Broken hearted Ryan homie, you made a mistake
You and Dad both made a promise, didn't think that shit would break
Always so nostalgic when I'm flyin' back to home
I just talk with Dad when I start to feel alone
You were all I live for, brother from the start
Even though you're in the ground, you live forever in my heart

[Verse 2]
You were talkin' on those church steps after [?] died
You picked me up and wiped my tears up on that summer night
14 days past and I wake up to a suicide
Grab my phone and call Gram, shocked as fuck, but gettin' by
And said she'll call me freshman year to say he love me
I was out in Arizona, Jack out in Kentucky
Countless nights I would break down in my dorm room
Wanted to come home, but thought the pain would end soon
Oh no, it didn't, caught emotional stitches
College; wanted to quit it, but couldn't, I didn't get it
So I went to music, to take away the pain
Tried to get up off it, but memories didn't fade
Growin' up now a man, but Ryan, no, never change
You talk [?] stand tall, say, "Fuck 'em," and be yourself
Doin' this on my own for you, don't need no help
Wrote this song for the books and feelings I couldn't shelf
What's up?