Dear, God

[Verse]
Dear god, I don’t know what time it is
Or what dimension or planet you in
I just so happen wanted to write this to you in my favorite black pen
And get down to the atoms of things that matter
That so happen to exist in my life right at this moment
I ain't got hold you
Today I feel like I’m all over there place
Over myself, I can’t even look myself in the face
With a pinch of compassion, I’m the biggest hater thrown salt on my name
“You piece of shit, you make me wanna, jump off a plane!”
Jump solely off of feeling disgrace
I wish I could explain and get down to the very grain of this train of thought
Convey the sauce, that’s rattling up the oceans inside the deepest part inside of my brain
Maybe you relate? Maybe you don’t ?
Maybe you can offer some remedy’s so I can seek happiness
Seek balance in work-life and things I’m passionate in
I so happen to be obsessed with perfecting the craftsmanship
Cuz anything outside of this no-related is blasphemous
All the years I’ve spent to get this aqueduct going ain't adequate, excuse my vent
I notice, this cold can turn some people off, I’ll simmer down a bit
It’s been so long God, I don’t know who you are? I don’t know where you are?
You might be omnipresent or might be a quasi star, It’s hypothetical
But energy lives in many forms
Many men shall form weapons against me, intentional or unintentionally
Don’t mind me, I’ll be slamming my hammer against iron until my bones and age deplete
Time is relative, how much time do I have left with my relatives
Sister, brother, moon, sun, mothership
Drop me here on Earth to spread my wings and count on me
Count to three, take flight, then bust my ass, fall and scrape my knees, try again
I tried again, I tried so much, I wish I prayed to you more often
I find that way of communicating with you some what awkward
To hear myself talking, “Are you even listening?”
I tune out whatever dishes in the sink
And keep my head bopping to the rhythm I’m in
I tap my foot and jot emotions down
Exposing things I never thought I had the guts to share out loud
Share with you, share with them
Share with the world, so you can draw a crowd
Make moms & poppa proud, for thirty-three years
We tried to raise you, and keep them wolves from sniffing around
Fuck what’s in the bank account
We’ll move around from where there’s bodies on the ground
Not on my name, not on my grave, we’ll try our best to keep some food under our roof, but
They’ll be days
We’ll have to scrape, a little porridge off our plates, fix your face
Don’t be discouraged, it’s the courage you’ll find when you follow faith
Open this book, read these chapters, let God direct you his way
When God is with you, everything you need will fall into place
And keep you safe from monsters we encountered along the way
We too embarrassed to say to your face, so in his name
Dear God, I hope can get to that piece of art, embodying my heart
Impacting humans from all walks of life
Before I have to say goodbye or mankind cutting my time short

From pandemics to Ai’s, to drones exploding in the sky
To the homeless man that was on my street sounding off “These are the times!”