[Verse]
Dear family
I'm coming to terms
I can't let somebody take it unless I'm the one that be taking it first
They keep on asking me questions
Like why I'm depressed and it's making it worse
I need to vent to somebody
I've tried everything, I'm done making it work
I'd rather die than be left to the herd
I've been thinkin' 'bout suicide
This rap shit is do or die
I receive messages, kids tell me daily "I'm glad I keep you alive"
I can't keep myself afloat
I feel lost in the sea, bullet holes in the boat
I just wanna feel peace, wanna feel me
I just wanna believe I felt normal before
This ain't how I envisioned it
I thought I'd sign and things would be different
Yeah, I guess the both of us wrong
I wrote these songs about killing myself
And I let the whole world sing along
I never make it, then all of my business is out in the open
After I'm gone
Yeah, I'm tired of playing the victim
Tired of having anxiety crippling
Tired of explaining depression to people
Who stuck in the system and won't even listen
I'm tired of overthinking every aspect about me
They don't give a fuck and it's sickening
Tired of living in hope there's a God
And my family can feel me whenever I visit
I'm sorry
[Outro]
I'm sorry
*Crying*
*Gun click*
*Phone ring*
Thank you
DEAR FAMILY was written by Apollo.
DEAR FAMILY was produced by Syndrome.
Apollo released DEAR FAMILY on Tue Sep 10 2019.
it’s #WorldSucidePreventionDay [sic] . I made this song when I was making #IDWGO but decided to cut it because im [sic] not longer in that place but I’ll be leaving it up here until midnight. I hope it helps one of you realize you’re not alone.
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