​dead inside

[Verse 1]
I don't have money for hair extensions
Or clear skin, kept in perfection
Mama says I don't have a direction
But maybe it's 'cause I got no connections
I'm so tired of all the protection
But then I realize that I hate rejection
Fuck the fame and all the attention
But I wanna be at the top of the selection

[Chorus]
I'm scared of who I wanna be
I'm pullin' at the bottoms of my sleeves
And everybody's watchin' me
I feel their glare inside my feet
And I, feel dead inside

[Verse 2]
My head is clocked with fears and doubts
But I know that I'll figure it out
Metaphoric hands on my mouth
Sound's on mute, but I wanna shout
Fuck the fame, and all the clout
I need to know what I'm about

[Chorus]
I'm scared of who I wanna be
Drenched in alcohol, smells like [?]
These crazy times are killing me
Isolated broken dreams
And I, oh I, feel dead inside

[Verse 3]
Standing at my front door
But we've been down this road before
"You're beautiful in every way
But your flaws are not okay"
You're the reason why
I'm dead inside