Dead In The head

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Chorus:
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
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Verse 1:
My fate I wanna seal it, This rap I just wanna kill it
What cuz you can't see it, doesn't mean I can't feel it
I guess my pain must be to real for you to feel it
As I look for any answer to help me heal it

Let me keep it real, I'm lost inside of my mind
Delivering these bar's that can literally kill
Jotting these lyrics that you can almost feel
Spitting out these rap's that are chronically ill

My style is wack as I smoke through another sack
No can relate, to all of my pain all of my hate
I been through hell's gate, and I haven't made it back
I put down the drug's and strayed away from my pack

Now they wanna talk smack thinking that they had my back
All cause I quit smoking crack or is it cause i'm wack
I write to get the pain out from inside of my head
Crying away on my bed, wishing I was fucking dead

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Chorus:
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
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Verse 2:
I feel so numb so close to calling it done
Don't forget why you rap, something inside of you snapped
Sick of fake fucks saying they always have my back
It was just another act as you keep talking smack

You can have these dagger's back thacha left in my back (Here you go)
I remember when you said you'll always be here for me
But I can see your doing nothing but hurdling me
Can someone set me free, i'm a prisoner inside of me

Many think i'm uneducated while I wondered if anyone related
But no one gave 2 fuck's. Not even the people related
And it suck's big nut's, to be stuck in rut's to the point you go nut's
I know I won't be missed, cause my soul is on Satan's list

Cuz I have sin's to confess, feeling's I need to address
My friend's and family I miss, My heart lost in a dark mist
And I have scar's across my wrist, but it's why I rap
Cause it always beats slitting my wrist

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Chorus:
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
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Verse 3:
I been lost looking for piece's of my broken heart
Between all the ruckus we drifted apart
I can't even find it I went back to the start
And I can't see in here, my soul is way to dark

I can't even sleep the pain haunts me in my dream's
Where no one can hear my scream's (Someone Please Help me!)
Nightmare's really than they seem
Our future staying hazy Screaming to my wife

"Please don't leave me baby! tell me i'm not crazy
At least give me a maybe. I can't take it without you I'd never make it
So here I face my fear. I don't need this life
As I grab for the Knife saying Fuck it I'll end it here

I just wanted to give you and our kid's all a better life
So I guess I'll see you all in the after life
Waking from the dream in bed, shaking my head
Wishing that it was real and that I was Dead
Fuck what's wrong inside my head

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Chorus:
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
Oh God I feel so numb
Oh what have I become
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