​dead b4 21

[Intro: casperrr, not home., casperrr & not home.]
Yeah-da-da
Yeah-da-da-da
Yeah-da-da
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Ah)
(O-oh)
(Yuh)

[Verse 1: not home.]
I let that shit get the best of me
Now I be rockin' on therapy
I do this shit all so carefully
The weight on my neck is just killin me
Pour down sleeve
I can't fucking sleep
Watch my eyes close
Yeah, I'm like 4D
This shit like 3D
I like her nose ring
Lil' bitch got tag team
Her love like bad dream
I pour my once all alone now
I whip it like green and I lay out
All of my boys tryna hang out
But, I'm just trying to smoke till I black out

[Verse 2: casperrr]
It's weird when I have future in my head (O-o-oh)
Because before twenty-one, I see myself dead (O-o-oh)
I can't see any color, how can I not be mad? (No-o-o)
I don't have an expectation for the start of my life, only for the end (O-o-oh)
I can't see anything, I cannot blend (O-o-oh)
In between the society, I'm on a deep end (O-o-oh)
Will I be able to stand?
Find myself in this shitstorm
Did they already know my end before I was born?
Last summer I was more lost than found
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
I couldn't talk, I couldn't sleep
I couldn't walk, I couldn't eat
I lost some pounds, I lost some weight
Now all pants fall from my waist
Scars on my wrist and tears on my face
The deepest wounds are the ones you can't see
I'm the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal
I hope I'll get better this year
Sometimes I stand still (Yeah, yeah, because)

[Outro: casperrr]
I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried (O-o-oh)
I cried, I cried, I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried (O-o-oh)
I cried, I cried, I cri-ied