Dark Place

[Verse 1]
Yeah
I was just thinking
What are the odds that I'd still be alive
I hated the fact I survived when so many others have died
Back in July they took out the mass that was in me and that's when I said my goodbyes
Now there's a threat that's growing inside of my head when I question about my demise
Why was I chosen
Why did he leave me here broken
I've made people sad without care for emotion
Put myself first and I chose not to notice
But that's when it hit me
I can keep living to change all the evil within me
I can keep living to say that I've been through the pain that's been in the hearts of so many
I may not hit fifty I may not hit forty
Gotta act quickly to get out my story
I hated the pity they'd always show for me
But now that I'm strong I tell them with glory the odds never mattered
It was that one in a million that brought you disaster
If that's where you're at at the bottom imagine the top of the ladder

[Chorus]
Those days crying in my room
Fighting all my demons 'cause that was all I knew
No way that I'ma make it through
I was locked away in my dark place
Trapped inside a dark phase
Tryna be alone
Their pity made my heart ache
They don't need to know
So I took my troubles far away and faced 'em on my own
For all my life, I was in a dark place

[Verse 2]
I'll always be having these questions
Why was it this that was destined?
Losing my mind when I noticed it in my reflection I'm stranded without a direction
Maybe these thoughts in my head are a sign of depression
I'ma make sure that I never express it
I'ma make sure that I teach em the lessons I've learned that life without pain is a blessing
Fighting all my demons on my own
I been tryna drown my feelings in Patron
Any type of healing I can find
I use to bring the silence to my soul
Staring at my ceiling thinking should I try to
Still chase all my dreams really what should I do
How can I achieve 'em when I'm stuck in my room
That's the most I see I think that I'ma die soon
And trust me cause that's on a real
I wasn't ever the type that would sit down and cry to tell 'em the way that I feel
I was still hurting but sharing that pain is a burden I know that it's better concealed
So I locked away, all my most painful of days
I thought that's the way I would heal

[Chorus]
Those days crying in my room
Fighting all my demons 'cause that was all I knew
No way that I'ma make it through
I was locked away in my dark place
Trapped inside a dark phase
Tryna be alone
Their pity made my heart ache
They don't need to know
So I took my troubles far away and faced 'em on my own
For all my life, I was in a dark place

[Verse 3]
Hiding away I regret it
Wishing I would've just said it out loud
Throwing that part of my head in the clouds
Hoping it'd never come down
Lately I'm straying too far and I hate it
They think I'm fine cause that's what I'm saying I hope I don't cry
All of the past coming back they probably think that I'm faking everything
But I'm not I still see it in my dreams
Thought that it was over but that isn't what it seems to be
I just need to be out of my head
Get me out of my head
Get me out of my, mind
I'm sorry I don't got the time
Too many things on my plate I'm tryna be great so I can't be waiting in line
I'm in a hurry
Trust me there's no need to worry remember I said that I'm fine, so many lies
I can see pain in they eyes so why should I tell em 'bout mine, listen
Hide inside your mind like it's a prison
Why should I confide they won't listen
Died while I'm alive I'm still living
But now it just don't feel the same
I'm growing older and pressure come up on my shoulders
I wish it would just go away
For now I'm okay but whenever they ask how I'm doing
Deep down I know just what to say

[Chorus]
Those days crying in my room
Fighting all my demons 'cause that was all I knew
No way that I'ma make it through
I was locked away in my dark place
Trapped inside a dark phase
Tryna be alone
Their pity made my heart ache
They don't need to know
So I took my troubles far away and faced 'em on my own
For all my life, I was in a dark place