Cycles

[Verse]
I never knew how hard it really hit me
I never knew how I could feel this angst
But one thing is for certain, that the days go by its getting harder and harder to hide all of my pain
And I'm sad all the time, when you're not with me
I don't cry anymore I just feel empty
Tell me how I'm meant to deal with all this pent up anger
At me and you and anybody who's with me
I see my friends all being happy and it hurts
Can't escape sometimes I wish was in a hearse
I'm embarrassed and I'm shocked at myself
I'm tryna comе to terms with the way that I feel
I wish that I could be in lovе and get the same back
Cus whenever that really happens, nah, it never lasts
I'm just tryna be okay and have a good laugh
But the whole world's against me, why are things so fucking hard