Cursed Forever

I lived on the block I wanted to leave
I made it out now I miss it
I don't miss being broke
I just miss all of the fucks that I wasn't givin
I miss all of the people I left
That shit makes me sad it fucks with my head
These days I'm under the sun
But I miss when it used to rain lead
If I could put you my back you would come
I feel bad you still in the slums
But whatever you need I got it
Im getting you out im making the promise
These demons got me like a hostage
I don't think I can handle more losses
We beef you die I don't gossip
Everyone fake so I'm being cautious
Sometimes I wanna go to heaven
I feel like I'm stuck in a dead end
I'm tryna remember my lessons
I don't even know where I'm headed
We was broke prayin to the sky
Nobody saw the tears in my eyes
Down bad I wanted to die
Say what you want I won't ever lie
I'd kill for any of mine
I'm still looking for my time
I'm wrong I wanna be right
I feel like I'm losing my mind
I look fine but it's different inside
Trying to just let it ride
I hope we find better life
Feel like I'm fighting for mine
All I got is my money and pride
Doing it all with no guide
Let me know where you're at and I'll slide
Sometimes I wanna go to heaven
I feel like I'm stuck in a dead end
I'm tryna remember my lessons
I don't even know where I'm headed