Crystal Ball

[Verse 1]
Starry nights van goh flows, artistry at its finest I'm trying to shine the light at any fucking spotlight
Girl i see you living
I'm recognizing everything
20/20 vision
I see things with the clarity, it's clear to me that I'll probably die alone, burdens on my shoulders but that shit feels like a stone
Road trip dazing
I'm always on the road
The time of day I give to her is too damn slow
Told her I'm always focused on bettering my flow
She asked me when Im gonna come home
I showed her a calendar
It had my schedule on it
In order for me to go home now I'd have to be super sonic
She knew I was busy and she said she was committed
Now she regrets the decision and said that'd shed give in
She said I've had enough
I told her don't go
She said I've had a boy for months and you'd never fucking know
She hung up fast after that low blow, reputation carving she made herself a hoe, too bad I couldn't dwell on it too long I had a show
Then after I performed I had to hit the road, my mind was spinning fast like outta control
Then I woke up sweating breathing fast in a panic
Thinking that shit was real man that shit was tragic
Reached over to my counter so I could drink my glass of water
Thinking about the shit that I had heard from my father
Telling me things discouraging me
That's the kind of shit that influenced my dreams
I layed back down and I felt through it all
Now I understood what it is that I saw
My emotions went through all it is was raw
Rap is just my calling and I answered the call
But with that lifestyle comes the partying
Drinking hard everynight
Because you fucking can
Getting wasted with your friends to prove that your the man
I don't think I'm ready for it
And it's approaching me
Coming at me fast that shit hit super speed
Got some shit to do I'll call that mr deeds
Legacy creating man I'm feeling like Apollo creed
Yeah but back to my dream
I went back to sleep and tried to forget it all
But the pain was too real, almost felt as if I hit a rock wall
Buying time for me, they tried to fucking stall
Knowing that id have to go through it all

[Hook]
This is what I see with my own crystal ball
Every night I dream this the kinda shit I see
Then when it really happens is when I stop to dream
Seeing things that I can't believe

[Verse 2]
Let's go back where we left off
She left my ass and I'm on tour we hit the road to take off
On the bus with a pencil in my hand
Writing music down then it started sounding bland
Ears started ringing
Heart started pounding
I had a heart attack and my life had barley started
Next thing I know
I'm on a fucking cart and
Being rolled in to a dark fucking closet
I see beams of light at the end of a tunnel
I'm starting to go towards it faster and faster
Then I drifted off and changed course to the side
The fear and disbelief that you could see in my eyes
I saw first hand where I was gonna end up
Hell at its finest had the fire blazing up
So then I stopped dreaming and woke up for good
Music is a curse but sometimes can do good