Crying With A Smile

I am sad
I am melancholy
Even though you cannot see it
My heart weeps and it won't stop bleeding

Im the sunshine of my family
My friends see me and are happy
But inside
I slowly die

I am sad
I am melancholy
Ive been blessed with music, image making, and a friend you can depend

But Im cold
I must unfold
Always hiding and concealing
I've smiling to while Im grieving

Cuz I don’t think you'll love me for who I am
I just think you'll love me
For what I can do for you
If all I am is a service to you
Certainly I’ll be nervous to do
Anything again, for you

I have had
I have many problems
Diagnosed with Adhd, can't sit still
My mind it leaves me

Want to focus on myself
Want stay here settled in
But my heart's at war
Dont seem to have a choice

I must breathe
I must settle down
Oh my blood is boiling
I'm so angry I can't see straight

Instagram won't let me live
Can't be weak I'll be perfect
So you can see the best of me
On your feed

Cuz I don’t think you'll love me for who I am
I just think you'll love me
For what I can do for you
And if all I am is a service to you
Certainly I’ll be nervous to do
Anything again, for you

I am sad, I am melancholy
Even though you cannot see it
My heart weeps and won't stop bleeding
Im the sunshine of my family
My friends see me and are happy
But inside, I slowly die

(Undiscerned pain)
Slowly die I cannot cry

Cuz I don’t think you'll love me for who I am
I just think you'll love me
For what I can do for you
If all I am is a service to you
Certainly I’ll be nervous to do
Anything again, for you
For you

(Undiscerned pain)

Cuz I don’t think you'll love me for who I am
I just think you'll love me
For what I can do for you
If all I am is a service to you
Certainly I’ll be nervous to do
Anything again, for you
For you