“crumbling / suicide note” is the final track of ANTIHERO.
“crumbling / suicide note” is a song about suicidal idealization. convolk talks about how no one wants to talk about things with him, so he wants to write a note that makes them realize and regret the way they acted.
[Intro]
I wish that I could find another way
But I am not alive, already dead
So long before I
[Verse]
I wish you knew how I feel
About you, about you
Don't think it's sad to, sad to
Suffer, I'm glad to, glad to
I'm crumbling down
I am still stuck in this town
Life of a letdown, letdown
Jumping to get down, get down
And I need some help
Ask for it? No chance in hell
Laugh at it after we fell
But I can't get up again
Do some more to sober up
Five-cards wants to blow me up
Falling is the best of fun
The last look at this gun
Every room in my house is a fucking mess
I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast
Maybe that's what it takes to wake up my friends
Hope you know what you were missing then
I wanna write a note that makes my friends cry
Write a note that makes my friends cry
Really makes me wanna take my life, take my life
[Interlude]
"Hey, umm... It's me and I don't really know how to say this, but... I don't think, umm... I'm gonna be coming home tonight and I just wanted to let you know it's not your fault and that I love you a lot. Uhh... You know, I've been thinking about it— this for a while and I've... settled on it, you know? So, I love you."
[Outro]
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight (It’s so painful)
Truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
(This is it) Tonight, tonight, tonight
If it's truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight
It's truthfully all tonight, tonight, tonight (It's so painful)
All tonight, tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight, tonight
crumbling / suicide note was written by convolk.
crumbling / suicide note was produced by Farber.
convolk released crumbling / suicide note on Fri Jan 31 2020.
You can find it on the YouTube-Channel of the producer farber.