Cruelty

It makes no difference
I should have left you first
Keeping mind over matter
A lesson of denial
Speaking of happiness you
Never thought of mine
But still I, I keep finding ways to love you

It makes no difference now
I shoulda, coulda, would've
Open eyes under water
Everything with you is a blur
So dumb and naïve
Of me to think that I could be in love
But still I, I keep finding ways to love you

It makes no difference
It means nothing, oh
'Cause I was there when you smoked your brains out
And cried about your childhood
Like some kind of sister wife
I felt so important
I was there opening your third eye
To mid-life crises
I keep finding ways to love you again

'Cause men of your generation like to play around
I never thought I'll be some second time affair
And she was always your life
And nothing can compare
So why did you, so why did you make me
Even your best friend tried to warn me on the low
But still I, I keep finding ways to love you again