Cross Me

[Free Verse]
I heard the people know my name now, I remember when niggas used to shit on me hard to believe that I'm that same guy
Was waiting until that rain drop, they done fucked up and let me out with clout I'm bout ready to put niggas to shame
Me and my brother did my time together and he on his way
And when he jump we gone be down forever
It fucked me up to tell my momma i signed for them years
And i bet she cried for me and chubby with the same tears
I lost it with her on the other side of that receiver
Hearing her weep for us to be free made me a believer
I had to chill for real to put my faith within the lord
To think before i speak n use the bible as my sword
No time to play with petty people, I ain't ordinary
Not never normal my new nickname Nell extraordinary
Life as a legend got me living like this shit illegal
Cause when you down them crackers pound them locks and will not free you

When you get locked up never put your trust in other niggas
Cause in a time of need they faker than your bitch weave
Don't depend on a brother not even if you love the nigga
Far as you know they all over your bitch like fleas
Its a dirty game these niggas play wit money get involved
It'll psyche you out to know what they do while you fight the law
I went through hell while tryna get streets out my head
It got so deep i felt weak tryna get from out my bed
Took me a while to figure out how to control my stressin
I just thank god i came this far and that i learned my lesson
The death of my niggas Bo and Kino put me in this state
When i realized my actions is why i ain't act that why
I jeopardize my future putting myself in this trap
But now that im out ima get on this rap and chase that paper stack
Thinkin' back in honesty I took my life for granted
I would just worry and panic bout how I was gone manage

Turned me to a bandit and eventually came burglary
Shit I'm just lucky they ain't charge me to the first degree
21 years would've brought death into my family
I would be living a life of regretting vanity
So says the bible honor thy mother honor thy father
And the fact that my father got life is what makes me go harder
Ain't that some shit since 99 i had permanent scars
Momma had jobs, daddy behind bars
Me and my brothers in the yard really thuggin' like a motherfucker
When it really came to us we would murder you aboutt one another
But then my mother lost her job and we had to struggle
Developed alot of bad habits cause i had to hustle
All that slangin' bangin' pistols into some missions
That's what got a youngin' fucked up in this position
Knowin' damn well I don't belong in a jail cell
Mom is in hell, made me pray to god i catch bail

I went from checkin' and wreckin' to juugin and finessin
Until i noticed doin' dirt was blocking my blessings
I had to recognize exactly what I'm meant to be
And i can't let these fuck niggas steal my prophecy
Bout me only, if you knew what i would to you, just know it'd be a mix of cruel and unusual
If you get wrong, fair warning bitch understand that, these statements ain't just a song
Bottom line is I would do whatever to get back home cus i been gone for too long homie
I pray all day cus i hate living with that devil on me
I will get through even if i have to execute a few
So to be free I must do what the fuck I gotta do
No hesitation the point of thuggin' is keep your cool
Fuck what u heard code of silence the number 1 rule
To all my niggas in the penn still fighting they case
All I can say is hold yo head up my nigga have fate
It's only one way out...

Yooo... i should've known you'd cross me