Creatures of habit

I’m not one for bad habits
Yet i still hurt myself like i’m one with crack addicts
Tragic
No cares bout my tangents
Fuck tryna help, you can stick to christ begging

Im so done with tryna care for these phonies
Im so done risking health for these maggots
All my life i’ve been called just a faggot
All i ever do is try to help taken for granted

I don’t
Know my own self worth
But do i know
What the fuck is self worth
I have come to
Don’t like where i’ve birthed
Should i stick round
Doesn’t matter i’ll get worse

Im so used
To fucking being ignored
And i still try to speak
I fucking talk to the void
Its like whenever i speak
Outta my mouth you hear noise
You make me feel cheap
Do everything to avoid

Put down the blunt youre not a slave to it
Put down the cig won't help you get through it
You drink you lose your movements
Call me when you through it
Im done with standing by your side convincing you to lose it

Ive done seen too many fucking addicts
Tried to help too much
All i seen is disappointment
Every time i lunge
I learned i ain't your baby sitter
No i ain't yo plug
It ain't my fault that you this way
But i just worry too damn much

And yes i know its a long road to sanity
17 years i’ve been dealing with this pain in me
Brush it to the side apparently my problems make belief
Tell me i need help, but no ones offering to talk to me
When i try to get help no one bothers
They think im just playing for attention like the others
When ive been so afraid to leave my house
Stay under covers
Im embarrassed to admit i need the help
So i stay quiet
Ive been trying to be vocal
Been so frustrated popping holes into the dry wall
Asking to take some time off
I’m used to getting brushed off
Can't stay on topic, brain is cooking up like beef raw

Should i stop trying
I need to learn that i won't be your savior
I hope that you can help yourself
Cause i won't be here later
On
And i know it ain’t my place
But i need you to be okay

Im so used
To fucking being ignored
And i still try to speak
I fucking talk to the void
Its like whenever i speak
Outta my mouth you hear noise
You make me feel cheap
Do everything to avoid

I just want to help
X4

Dont ask me for help
Until you help yourself
Save your breath
Save your crave for bullshit
And the words you say
Out my way