Crayon Crush

I wish i took a little time to figure out myself
To put it all together and make a mess
14 years old i was so in love
And when we broke it off i was completely crushed

When i was a little kid i wanted nothing more
Than to be just like my dad and mother
Id take pieces of cardboard and make ID cards
Fold up laptops and crayon keyboards

I wish i took a little time to figure out myself
Willed into depression as a bright young male
Started smoking cigarettes to prove myself
To make it more apparent that i needed help

Fictional willingness to be more dark
Fiction in the middle of a water park
Something there was clouded in a brutal form
Slipping into happiness and warmth

Oh an accidental life force
A beauty never meant
Oh an accidental power source
A wisdom never meant
Oh an accidental dream life
Reality never meant
Oh
I accidentally was born