Crashing Up

[Verse 1]
Ever thought about getting to know yourself?
Well I did, and sometimes I wish I didn't
You can't cancel on plans with the voice in your head
Sometimes it's mine, and sometimes it's someone else
And it's not even an actor that I like
I guess that's kind of self-destructive
When you ask I'll say "I'm only messing"
Open up my chest, and you'll find a big red button
And a warning not to press it
With the text that's fading off
It's just a guide, it's window-dressing

[Hook]
And I still need you
I'm torn apart, I just needed a friend
Until I want to
I'm falling down, I'm crashing up again

[Verse 2]
Stepped out
Called the 'Savior Complex Anonymous' hotline and got the dial tone
Guess you can't save everyone
Especially if you've not been to the dentist in 4 years
And you're allergic to saving money
Searching symptoms online
"Why do I feel so tired all the time?"
Starting to miss the 'H' in my ADHD
Worry all my friends secretly hate me
And I'll show them because, well
I couldn't even look in the mirror this morning
Took a shower with the lights off
Couldn't face looking at my skin
Thought it best to leave the flat with false confidence than crippling embarrassment
I hate the sound of my own voice
I hate the sound of my own voice
Life's just an invoice you can't cash in
Clothes soaking wet from a dip in big guilt river
Chucked all my pennies in but still no wishes richer
And I can't stop looking at that picture
What goes down must come crashing up
But I wish the crashing would come crashing quicker
I just know that you'll be fine, and I'll be even better

[Hook]
And I still need you
I'm torn apart, I just needed a friend
Until I want to
I'm falling down, I'm crashing up again
And I still need you
I'm torn apart, I just needed a friend
Until I want to
I'm falling down, I'm crashing up again

[Outro]
And I do appreciate being here
I'm just knackered, you know
There's a lot going on
I'm doing a lot of talking
But, I'm sick of the sound of myself, you know
I'm sorry I never got back to you
But I'm trying