Countless stares

[Verse 1]
I only have one face but a million emotions
I only have two hands and I use them for throwing
Three times I fell for you, is love just a notion?
I cry too much, I'm sorry for all the commotion

[Chorus]
I don't mean to act this way
It took thirty-two days and countless stares
To get me how I am today, and yet you push me away
People don't like me and how I think
So I hide away and throw up in the sink
Then I run into my hoodie, where no one can see me

[Verse 2]
I keep on seeing things
Sorry, I'm delusional
I swear the phone rings
When you leave it stings
I see you when I bleed
When you see me you brush it off and just proceed with your day
I can't do that so easy, got to take a step back
Have a relapse, then call my therapist who tells me to just relax
Find my happy space which just seems a fantasy away
If I believe enough maybe the countless stares will just go away
I'll fade to gray, Blend in with the background
And people will be happier
I'll have no face and no emotions
No hands and no one to throw them at
No time to waste on you
People could just shut up and leave me alone for once

[Chorus]
I don't mean to act this way
It took thirty-two days and countless stares
To get me how I am today, and yet you push me away
People don't like me and how I think
So I hide away and throw up in the sink
Then I run into my hoodie, where no one can see me