Couldn’t (If I Wanted To)

I couldn't if I wanted to
Stop this shit
Everything makes me sick
In this five hundred thousand day long year

It's all gone
The hope that held me on
And I don't know what we're gonna do from here
Cause there isn't a [?]

This life's too long
But it shorter than this song
And I guess that I just don't know what I want

But in this damn year
Where everything is shit I fear
The passing of time just throws me off
Cause there isn't a [?]

I am not an optimist
I am not an optimist anymore
I am not an optimist
I am not an optimist anymore

And I'm sorry if that's depressing