Corona Anxiety

This rap shit my fucken passion
Never gone out of fashion
Remember writing raps and
On the bus, headphones blasting
My life ain’t no fairytale, this a satire
Blue like the sea, but beautiful like a sapphire
Change flowing through my veins
Tragedies turn into rage
My albums are books
Every song’s another page
Criticize myself a million times a day
Love when I’m on the stage & they scream my name
In those moments I’m safe, I’m special, I’m a goddess
But then the lights turn off and nothing more is promised
All I got is this moment, I could die tomorrow
My poetry is proof that life is full of sorrow
Life is full of beauty, clarity, confusion
It’s scaring me, sometimes got no clue what I’m doing
That’s because I’m human, I’m flawed, I’m perfect
Ain’t nobody like me, that’s the only thing that’s certain
When they close the curtains, I am just a person
Processing, learning, I go back to hurting
I sit with myself, my reflection hates me
My demons, they chase me, but my art elevates me
Tryna embrace the balance, that’s my biggest challenge
Loving myself like i love those around me in my palace
That loved me at my wildest. Life go so fast
I needa let go of my past, needa let go so bad

I can’t keep up
Life go too fast
Life so precious
Now I know that
I am living, I’m alive
I am living, don’t wanna die

I can’t keep up
Life go too fast
Life so precious
Now I know that
I am living, I’m alive
I am living, don’t wanna die

If I die tomorrow, bullet in my skull
I gave my fucken soul, in everything i wrote
I wanna heal the people, I need to know I’m special
I am going crazy, are you coming with me? Let’s go!
I feel isolated, maybe cuz I am
This corona virus spreading all throughout the land
History in the making, got me in my depression
Trying not to stress it, express it cuz I’m desperate
This shit getting hectic, this feel like a movie
This feel like a nightmare. If I’m honest, I’m scared
Worried about my grannie, thinking about my family
Trying to be an example & be the best that I can be
But honestly, I’m worried. Time stopped and I’m in a hurry
I know this bottle staring at me not good for me
This really a struggle, but I know I’ll be alright
I’m paranoid! Fight or flight, but I’m alive tonight!
This a crazy time, but we gone survive
Me, myself and I know we gone be alright

I can’t keep up
Life go too fast
Life so precious
Now I know that
I am living, I’m alive
I am living, don’t wanna die

I can’t keep up
Life go too fast
Life so precious
Now I know that
I am living, I’m alive
I am living, don’t wanna die