Cool Kids Table

[Verse 1]
I can't, wrap my head around it
Why you, keep on bringing up old shit?
Taking, its toll on my health
I don't, feel like I can really be myself when I'm around you
Lest I want to face the side of you that I hate
Which in and of itself should really indicate
There is to some degree a certain sense of uncertainty
That you don't fucking hate me

[Chorus]
Why do I kid myself?
Why do I keep on pretending, there's something
Worth even holding on to?
Worth holding on to

[Verse 2]
"Hey man, how have you been?
What's up?
Haven't seen you in months," he says
And lights up a smoke
As I wonder how I'll be made into the butt end of a joke
'Cause that's all I am these days
Begging for crumbs, at the edge of the cool kids table
Am I unstable?
Is there something, that I'm not getting?
Am I letting, go of a good friend?
Or was I, merely pretending the whole time?

[Chorus x2]
Why do I kid myself?
Why do I keep on pretending, there's something
Worth even holding on to?
Worth holding on to

[Outro]
I'll be just fine
We'll still cross paths from time to time